I have been in that place, very very hard to discribe the pain..Then my new bike was delivered the day i was at the low point..
I know it sounds naff...but the bike and the thought of not being around to ride free in the fresh air changed my mind. The
first time....Ren and Pete,and a few others helped me thou they did not know at athe time.. Stay focused folks and talk to
your mates..just cos we are men does not make us super hero's..Talk.
PS: i have now seen the light...It is biking and your mates.